Editor's Note: This guest post from Deen, is part of a week-long series to celebrate the visibility and heroism of transgender Americans as part of Transgender Awareness Week. The final day of Transgender Awareness Week is theTransgender Day of Remembrance (TDOR), an annual observance on November 20 that honors the memory of those whose lives were lost in acts of anti-transgender violence.
I fought the idea that I was transgender for a long time. Perhaps I knew that it would test my most important – and precarious – relationships that those relationships wouldn't make it. I don't know. What I do know is that I came out as a “butch” bisexual in 1994, at the age of 19. I spent 10 years proving my masculinity everyday, defending myself to my family, and fighting the barely conscious thought that maybe this journey would take me farther, and being very afraid.
In 2004, I went to India of all places – my family's homeland – and I met another transgender man who changed my life. I suppose I saw myself reflected in his face, in his experience, and couldn't deny it anymore. It was a tough road, for both myself and my partner of 5 years (at that time).
This is what I learned: My parents loved me, but not unconditionally. They wanted to protect me and to protect the family from talk and gossip and misunderstanding, and so they were not able to be there for me during this difficult time. My partner loves me... unconditionally. Though it was hard for her, though she had to tell her parents that her partner was now a man, though her parents had to tell her grandparents, still I was always a welcome part of their family.
Other things I learned: My life is not just about gender. Sometimes it's about theater (my career) or music or cooking. It's always about friends and loved ones. It's always about the Beloved Friend (God). It's always about looking deeper and discovering the layers of truth.
I made this video about my journey, and I think it explains it better than these words, so I will end now and offer you this:
Today is Transgender Day of Remembrance (TDOR), a day when we honor the lives of those who were lost to acts of anti-transgender violence.As part of bringing attention to the violence that largely impacts transgender women of color, MTV News, Logo, and MTV Act shared graphics and information about TDOR on social media, and directed their followers to resources about being transgender as part of their "Look Different" campaign.
GLAAD Southern Stories will elevate the experiences of LGBT people in six of the nation's southern states. The initiative amplifies stories of LGBT people thriving in the South, ongoing discrimination, as well as the everyday indignities endured by LGBT people who simply wish to live the lives they love, including stories of family, stories of faith, stories of sports, and stories of patriotism